2010 in Review

Before starting my year-in-review, I need to preface it with something.
See, my 2010 actually started in November 2009 at an all-inclusive resort in Playa Del Carmen, the Mexican Riviera.
nov 2009 - playa del carmen

I had forgotten my Serzone (depression/anxiety medication) that I’d been on for over a decade. And just like that, without intending to, I set the tone for the entire year to follow.
I had tried to come off many times before with terrible results. I braced for the mental struggles to come.
But they never did.

After years of work and spiritual practice, my brain was apparently firing differently than it once did. The drugs were a huge help to me, and I reserve the right to go back at any time, but ever since that weekend in Mexico, I have been off prescription drugs.

Since I was free of my pharmaceutical crutch for the first time in 12 years, I wanted to start the new decade free from my “persona” crutch, as well. So the week before 2010 started, on the night of the winter solstice, I shaved my head.
After 6 years of having bright pink hair, I cut it all off.
I started 2010 reborn and raw.

raw headed

2010 Highlights:

  1. Learned a bunch about myself without the pink.
  2. Attended the magical “Fuente Eterno” gathering and skipped SXSW for the first time.

  3. Attended Lightning in a Bottle Festival, Elysium, & San Diego Decom

  4. Fell in love with Blicious.

  5. When The HugMobile broke down and needed a new engine…the community flooded me with Love…and $5000.
  6. Re-pinked my hair.
  7. Officiated a traditional wedding in San Diego & a non-traditional one at Burning Man.
  8. Participated in my 13th Burning Man.

  9. Lots of amazing Uncle Time.

  10. Lots of fun times with my folks.
    Family Sandwich

  11. Published my first book, “Love more. Fear less.”
    Love more fear less, Float more steer less

  12. Got an awesome 2 day/week gig at MySpace
  13. Recorded 13 episodes of “Belief Buffet: Conversations” with Dmitry Shapiro. (And countless non-recorded mind-bending convos.)
  14. Broadcast a live HugNation every freakin’ Tuesday. Started doing some Happy Hour and Sunday broadcasts, too. Posted hours & hours of edited archive footage.
  15. Hosted a Monthly “Burner Brunch” – every 1st Sunday.
  16. Participated in an Ayahuasca Ceremony.
  17. Met twice a month with my life coach & Listened to every Sunday lecture by Jacob Glass.
  18. Started a monthly “Help The Homeless” event with Jason.
    Our 11th outing (Dec’s) attracted 45 big-hearted participants who helped out countless people in need.

  19. Spent LOTS of energy (and connected with lots of people) on Facebook.
  20. Froze some sperm & got a vasectomy.
  21. Posted my Top 10 oddest achievements.
  22. Loved deeply.

Life just gets better and better.
The Now feels more and more miraculous.
My sense of Awe deepens.
My gratitude soars.
My heart continues to expand.
Thank you for being a part of the journey.

-john halcyon styn
self hug
(book & LiB photos by Mike Hedge

  1. #1 written by Linda Renkowicz December 19th, 2010 at 21:50

    Sounds like you have had an incredible year. It’s a
    good thing to do these years in review. I was also on serzone
    for a few years. It made me talk in my sleep and have more than
    the usual weird dreams. It did help with my anexity though but
    I have been off of it for years though. Congrats on your getting
    off of it too. I found that keeping busy really helped me with
    anexity. Going to burningman every year helps a lot too.
    Anyway I want to say something profound but I guess I can’t
    think of anything. You are an incredible person and I consider
    it a privledge to know you. I need to get back into the hugnation
    though. It has always put me in a great frame of mind. No more
    excuses. :-). Again you have had an incredible year!!!

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  2. #2 written by Halcyon December 19th, 2010 at 21:53

    I’m smiling and thing of you… thank you for the warm fuzzies. I think getting off meds is profound, enough! ((HUG))

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  3. #3 written by Danger Bunnie December 19th, 2010 at 23:18

    Mere words cannot express the profound appreciation I feel for the honor of knowing you. Aloha Nui Loa, thank you for sharing your Spark.

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  4. #4 written by Roberto December 20th, 2010 at 07:51

    John, I wanted to share that I would not have fully appreciated all of this a year ago, but this year I know I get it. You indeed had a remarkable year and I hope we can become even closer friends in 2011. Am glad to see you inspiring, and being inspire. I identify with that.


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  5. #5 written by Amelia G December 20th, 2010 at 10:18

    Congrats! Sounds like an excellent year. Always nice when you make a list and reading it turns out good 🙂

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  6. #6 written by Halcyon December 20th, 2010 at 10:30

    Thank you! I tend to focus on just the things I enjoy remembering. Happy New Year!

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  7. #7 written by Halcyon December 20th, 2010 at 10:30

    Amen, Roberto! See you in the new year!

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  9. #9 written by Isabella Valentine December 21st, 2010 at 12:19

    Do you have a link to a blog post regarding the Ayahuasca ceremony? I’ve been studying these ceremonies for some time now, and would love to hear about your experience or what you took with you from observing or participating.

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  10. #10 written by Beth December 21st, 2010 at 16:42


    I have known you online a very long time. I am really proud of you and your personal growth. You have always been an influencer and a person who has a great energy that brings people together. Its great to see you taking that strength and power with the lessons you have learned to bring about positive change and help people. You are amazing and the joy that you bring to this world is great. Keep working on yourself and keep changing the world. You are an inspiration.



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  11. #11 written by Sexy Bexy December 21st, 2010 at 20:47

    I went to BM this year and looked all over for you. It was my first trip, not a virgin anymore. 😉
    I was the drive by loli pop glam girl on my beach cruiser. xoxoxoxo

    Proud of you! Keep up the good work. Seattle is good to me, living on Alki Beach in West Seattle rocks! I’m in San Diego visiting Sheila rt now. She says hello! We love you! Bex

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  12. #12 written by Halcyon December 21st, 2010 at 21:00

    BEXY!!! Aw, I’m bummed I missed you at the burn. Heading back next year? I have such fond memories of you and your smile. Glad ot hear things are good. Huge hugs to you and Sheila!!

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  13. #13 written by Halcyon December 21st, 2010 at 21:00

    Thank you so much, Beth! <3

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  14. #14 written by Greg Young December 22nd, 2010 at 00:30

    Truly an amazing year, John. You are an inspiration. I’m going through a huge personal growth period myself, prompted by an amazing weekend with a goddess who changed my life. Now I’m looking at your life in awe, and realizing that once we open to love everything is possible and one’s heart fills with joy. Thank you not just for being so beautiful and loving, but also for sharing that gift through your words, photos, videos and most importantly your actions in the real world.

    Greg / Smoke Blower

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  15. #15 written by Halcyon December 22nd, 2010 at 02:07

    Love you ,Greg! Can’t wait to gear more about your recent experiences. <3!!

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  16. #16 written by Halcyon December 22nd, 2010 at 02:08

    Silona! Every time I see a tweet or update from you I feel a little bit better about the world. ((hug))

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  17. #17 written by Cakky December 22nd, 2010 at 08:24

    Thanks for always putting a smile on our faces and joy in our hearts. Keep on shining Halcyon! Love and spirit to you and yours. “When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace.” Jimi Hendrix

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  18. #18 written by Erica P December 26th, 2010 at 18:21

    Thank you for the updates, what a great year! Congratulations for so many things. Continue to celebrate and your encouragement of others to do the same- we need it and value it. Much love, brother.

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  19. #19 written by Halcyon December 26th, 2010 at 18:30

    Much love and Merry Xmas to you, Erica!!

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  20. #20 written by Ingrid Baisch December 31st, 2010 at 12:21


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  21. #21 written by Kristin Bertrand January 2nd, 2011 at 22:25

    And what an amazing journey it has been! I’m so happy to get these updates every year and see all you’ve done through the years. I’m inspired by the life you continually create, enamored with the work of art it has formed, and always warmed by all the love=) Thanks for sharing and I look forward to hearing of 2011!

    Much love,

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  22. #22 written by Halcyon January 3rd, 2011 at 07:45

    Kristin!! What a treat! Happy New Year to you. Hope you are amazing. <3

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  23. #23 written by Spicey January 4th, 2011 at 00:03

    You’re incredible and though I’ve not met you in person, I love you! Happy new 2011 & new Decade. Reading all this has inspired me at a time when I need it and I pray that I’ll be posting such lofty accomplishments for myself this same time next year. Thank you for sharing your love, hugs and self with the world, John! You are precious! xoxo )'(

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  24. #24 written by Halcyon January 4th, 2011 at 07:46

    I love you, too, Spicey! Much love to you in 2011!

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  25. #25 written by Begüm January 8th, 2011 at 06:23

    You’re so cool! I love your year!!! I wish my year was as fun as yours 🙁
    Oh well, I’ll make 2011 fun! 🙂


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